Last night I dreampt that my mother, my brother, my boyfriend and myself were in a car accident. They survived, But I did not. I was auotmatcially taken to heaven in my dream. As soon as I realized where I was I started looking for all of my loved ones that have passed away. I never found them. I saw a couple people that I knew from school. We never really talked or anything. And in real life they are still alive. There was a person, Like a superior person that was in charge of everyone, It wasnt God. I couldnt see them but I know it wasnt God. I started going back and fourth from heaven to visiting home where my mother, sister and boyfriend live. Everytime I would go visit they wouldnt be there. But it would be a different house. It was like they kept moving around to different houses. And when I would go inside they would be dark and mysterious. One of the times I went to see my mom sister and boyfriend they werent there but my auntie and uncle were. It looked like they were moving things out of the house, I went into a room that was my boyfriends found at the top of spirling stairs and found that our room was exactly the way it is in real life, But with our pictures everywhere and ripped up letters on the floor. I asked my auntie where everyone was and they said at the new house. Then she said they are trying to let you go. But they cant. I felt an immediate feeling of anxiety and sadness. I felt horrible that they were mourning over me so such a long time. And I couldnt do anything to help them. I felt anxious because everytime I went to see them I couldnt find them and I knew it would make their pain go away. So I traveled back to heaven. The way there was straight up in the air and was like a road and I would walk. Not fly. I got back to heaven and was told by that "superior" person that I had more time that I could go back and try to see my mom sister and boyfriend. But the bad thing was I could take that chance of going to see them without success, And stay there, Not being able to go back to heaven. Or stay in heaven and never be able to go see them. I didnt know what to do. Because If i went back I knew they wouldnt be there, But If I kept searching I might be able to find them. But I had alot of doubt about that. And if I stayed in heaven with just myself because my loved ones that have passed away that I miss so much werent there. I couldnt make a decision. And the pressure of trying to was just to much and that is what woke me up from my dream. I woke up like I do most of the time from dreaming like that. Crying shaking and feeling like it was still real.