i am going to make a key maybe to explain the personal things, this is all written to myself, as a reminder for me, not necessarily so other people can understand. lots of misspellings too.






my dream last night had kelly (old girl friend who i was obsessed with kind of, pathetic) there she was controlling me like usual, then when she left her face looked that like girl i saw that looked like her from rolling oats

my dream last night i was staring at a voltron robot, that was moving like one of those leggo erector moter sets, then its started swirling its arms reallly cool, then i became it
and started shooting a laser gun., i found the gun after i only first found a flashlight built in. then i started shooting then cool white/black gun wtih a friend and it was a really great time
we were laughing it up side by side firing away, the girls looked at us like "what geeks", then i got up from the ground, i was laying on my stomach, and couldnt find my key
i looked around on the ground it was like looking on the ground after clean vibes, i found a bunch of stuff, a ligher a dollar coin, but no key, whatever.

then i was in this building with stairs, on the stair case kind of the london building, or a school, or russia hostel. there was a deamon of some sort upstairs, i was with my sister.
it was kind of like a video game boss like you had to go to it to get past the next level, i went up there and became a samurai from the video game and slashed it up good, it was easy, and i i punched it
with a chain i wrapped around my fist, the one that was on my nightable the night before, at first i put it on my left arm and it was hard to hit, but i eventually got a good strike in


august 20


last night i slept a long time many dreams

one was i was in this comic store dimly lit, kind of like comics and hobbies, there was a preppy kind of geeky kid but preppy, looking at the comics next to me
kind of acting better then me, i felt like maybe i was not fanboy enough(kind of funny actually not being a comic geek enough), he could have been the kid
with a sega shirt from badger day camp grown up,

i felt somehow a little inferior, he might have been a scientist or something prestigious now.####

there was a computer on the floor
a custom built one, kind of a super computer, it was running linux, to proov my geekyness partly and partly curiosity i was looking at it, the screen made little sense
lots of nonsense columns packed together, i pressed tab and scrolled through the very narrow columns, the word linux was prominent, and how it was much faster and more
efficient then the competition. then i was standing at the top of the stairs at home, and the linux computer was on the floor in the entrance way, foy ay. it was
giving off electric energy looking like a tesla coil.



the next dream had a lot of futuristic architecture, i was hanging out with owen and he had some futuristic home, that reminds me now of another dream with owens
super house wiht all the garden fountains, and the huge outdoor grassy hill that led down i think to a music festival.

reminds me to send owen a piece.

so noel ( a girl i used to like, very attractive intelligent scorpio, she used to help me with chemistry) was there, and we were very close, it was very emotional, i was hugging her, i think good bye and i almost came, i had to pull away from her too keep from blowing
my load, we were just hugging.


august 26 the night of the first DNC night

I had a dream where i was following this murderer around, half ghost type of thing, it looked like villain from scream, the long face ghost, but it was also kind of like i know
what you did last summer cause it was summer and nature where the killings took place. the one killing i remember is i was underwater and i witnissed the longface
swim up and drag someone down into the water drowning him, similar to how i visualized charles manson spirit kill that beach boy, how he said "my shadow killed him for steeling my songs"
in that drowning accident that happened, this is not part of the dream just something i connected it to now, that i visualized when reading the manson wikipedia article.
the wierd thing was i was not scared at all, usually during scary dreams like that its scary as hell, but in this case i was not the person being the victim, i was just an onlooker
i dont think that i was the ghost/killer but i was witnessing his murders, and for some reason it was not scary at all really, just kind of morbid and calm.

first i was looking at a computer chip/circuit board, and i was following along a metal path and each dot/mark along the path i got explained meant a certain thing, to the machine, not at all the way machines worked though but maybe, each metal mark in the board held some kind of information. this melded into...
then I was doing a lab like in chemistry class, in college, it was very high pressure i remember, very complicated as usual, my lab partner was the really smart russian kid who sat next to me in c# computer class, there was a line with marks on it, like a time line, we were figuring out the lab, he was ahead of me, it was like if you subtracted one from the other you got the difference, and it split up into three pieces, i said that out loud to him and felt kind of smart even though in retrospect it was very simple. then we drifted to something about using carbonite and we were gonna ask leo laport for help, he was kind of like the teacher/man in charge, but he was up on some higher level kind of like the wizard of oz, we wanted to figure it out ourselves and not have to bother him. kept getting sidetracked to the script/kiddee, using programs web 2.0 side of figuring things out, i had to drag ourselves back and keep being reminded of the more technical graph, which dealt with the real guts of the matter. kind of like the way i feel now, using already written scripts is so much easier and usefull, that leraning the tech and theorey behind it i want to do, but is not directly applicable.

then we went on this adventure on the train, and grand central and in that small town searching for something, there was a green troll/gremlin involved it was fantisful. i saw beautiful landscape, country side, was american coutnry side mixed wiht fantisy novel.

then me will and a bunch of kappa kids were having a reunion sitting around the back door of kappa, for some reason abbey was there, those are the only three people i remember, me and will were jamming, some sort of spanish guitar, i was picking the notes three finger real fast, then i dropped a funky bassline on the guitar.

then i was chilling with the guy from jurrassic five, we were friends, i found myself at one point on bonnie bryer golf course for some reason, the terrain landscape was really detailed/wild deep woods, with streems and bridges.

so i was friends with the J5 rock star rapper, we were hanging out and i kept trying to interview him, and he was like "you dont have to interview me man were friends:".




then the night before this, i was half asleep half awake in the morning, and i was thinking about how i had to go downstairs to get my wake up "tea" from out of the basement refriderator, and i imagined, these really wierd/witchy books, like from the ebook pdf torrent, but they were real books, in my nighttable and invissioned, a scary lazy eyed looking priest who was in the basement, and the word Bizzare, was in my mind, it was really scary and i didnt want to go downstairs to the basement. this was half asleep/awake.