I visit the lake in many of my dreams. Usually, the dreams here are not pleasant, though I love the water and I love to swim. Usually, I find myself standing on the dock, looking out over the water, and suddenly the dock begins to crumble underneath me and I fall through. I swim to the bank but for some reason I can't pull myself up onto it.

Sometimes when I dream of the lake, I happen to be fishing. Everything is usually fine, then I get a sudden pull on the rod. At first it seems normal, but it begins to get stronger. Eventually it becomes apparent that this is no normal fish on the line. Sometimes I can see it swimming as a large shadow, its large fins just breaking the surface, but the thought never crosses my mind to let go of the line. I just can't. It pulls me into the water with it and begins swimming out into the middle of this lake. Now I realize the water that seemed to be just fine earlier is filled with rotting, dead fish. It's like my hands are glued to the fishing pole as it takes me further, never completely submerging me in the water. Then it suddenly stops. I let go of the rod. I look back at the miles I have to swim to shore. The dead and bloated fish still float all around me. And I can still feel this monster fish circling me, brushing me against my sides and the bottom of my feet.

Then I wake up.

I don't really remember my emotions while in this dream. All I know was that I wasn't afraid of the monster fish, but I didn't like it. I was more disgusted by it... more disgusted by it than by all the dead fish. Even though I know in my dream I never saw it, in my head I imagined it was large and brown and looked sort of like a giant grouper (like this one here). Its skin was muddy and slimy in texture and kind of like rotting flesh... (what I mean is that in my dream I know it never surfaced and I never saw it, but after the dream was over I had a picture in my head of what it had looked like).

Though the dreams differ slightly each time, I've had them quite often. Sometimes I will have the dock crumbling dream and simply fall into a lake of dead fish, and I can't get out of it. Sometimes I have a dock crumbling dream and fall into a lake full of crocodiles. One time I had the dock falling dream and fell into a lake full of dead whales... Sometimes it's a whale that pulls me in.

It just doesn't make sense to me? What is with all of these dead fish? Why is it the lake? Why do I always fall in?