MelancholyRose Jul 30, 2012
Since this is your only dream entry, you probably haven't been back here since you posted this, but when I read it, I felt familiarity.

I have a LOT of dreams about my boyfriend leaving me for someone else, because I have a lot of issues trusting people. If he's not leaving me in my dreams, he's cheating on me or something, and the woman he is with is far more beautiful than myself. In reality I know he'd never hurt me like that, but it's important to tell myself what brings on dreams like that.

I'm also incredibly insecure, and don't find myself interesting or attractive, so I assume that everyone else thinks the same thing, but it's my boyfriend that I fear losing to such a thing, since I rely and depend on him, and he was sort of a final glimmer of hope for me to see that people are capable of kindness.

What I found most interesting about this entry, though, was the fact that when he brought up your friend costing him money, you never thought "why are you spending money on her?" Like you believed that it really was a requirement for him to spend that much on a person. No one is required to spend money on their girlfriend or friends. Then you began thinking about how much money he spends on you, completely forgetting about what he had done. It sounds like money itself plays a big role in your relationship (or PLAYED I should say, it's been a year by now).