Starting about a year ago I started having these dreams, I am not sure you can even consider them dreams. Because I do not feel asleep. I am lying in my bed on the verge of falling asleep and something comes over me. I feel as though I am on something. I suppose it feels like I am having a really bad 'high' that I cannot shake off. At times I feel as though I am falling or spinning, but the whole time I am completely aware that I am laying in my bed. I have the sensations of being on one of those spinning rides at an amusement park, or a roller coaster, but the whole time I am just lying in my bed with my eyes shut. Sometime's I am able to see my bedroom, see myself lying in my bed, and I get this terrible feeling come over me. I become frightened but I am never sure why. I can see myself and I am trying to get myself to wake, to open my eyes so it will all go away. But it is strange because I am looking at myself lying there, however, I feel as though I am in my body. I feel myself lying there with my eyes closed. I struggle to try to open my eyes but I can't. I never knew it was possible to be seeing myself from one percpective, to dream that I was in my very own bed, where nothing was out of the ordinary. But yet I am feeling from a completely different percpective. I struggle for what seems like minutes to open my eyes. I know that I feel frightened, maybe it is merely because I am unable to wake, it's like I am stuck. But when I finally open my eyes, they are unbareably heavy. I am never certain to weather I am still asleep, or if I have actually opened my eyes. I am scared to shut my eyes again but I am struggling to keep them open. It all seems so real, because I can see my tv on. I am trying to widen my eyes and watch the tv. But I can't I keep falling in to sleep, and as I'm falling back into my sleep, I get that 'high' feeling once again...

One time while this dream kept occuring I had invisioned myself laying in my bed, my best friend was sleeping over and was laying to the left of me. I was tossing and turning and had this 'high' feeling. I was so scared I felt as though somebody was in the room with us. Then it was like that scene from paranormal activity (where the girl gets dragged from the bed) I felt as though something was pulling my upper body off of my bed. I was scared that I was going to fall but I didn't. My upper body was floating off the edge of the bed, but it hurt, I felt heavy, and as though I was concentrating so hard to keep from falling. As if somebody was wanting me to come crashing down, and if I stopped concentrating I would fall. Then I felt myself being pulled I clutched on to what I could. It was taking up so much of my energy. I would be fighting to open my eyes during this whole cycle, but each time I opened them I would flip over hoping that it would all be okay, but it wasn't. Each time my eyes would shut again it would keep happening. I wanted so bad to just fall asleep, because I am always convinced that I am not sleeping. Sometimes these only last a couple of minutes, sometimes they last much longer. But they are so surreal, Am I dreaming that I am exactly where I am? Why do I feel so scared?

This sensation does not happen all night. I am telling you I don't feel as though I am sleeping. Because once I am able to fall asleep, I am able to dream normally. These moments are the closest things to nightmears I have had sense I was a child. The only moments I am actuallly frightened to sleep, I feel frightened to sleep, but I am asleep? My dreams where I know that I am sleeping, are always good dreams, even when they are bad. I love to dream. Although I remember very little in the morning from these dreams. This however, I remember every detail, every feeling, it seems so real.

This sounds like an Out of Body Experience. Here is a Scientific Explanation of Out of Body Experiences and here is a Different Perspective on Out of Body Experiences

What is most important is to know that these experiences are not dangerous and when people learn to relax through them they can even get some enjoyment out of them sometimes.

They can be caused by stress or lack of sleep and are related to sleep paralysis.