So I have been super stressed with my family, school, and money. The typical stuff. And, on top of that, I've actually made an attempt to lose weight, but I've only put it on!! WHAT?!

Yesterday I woke up with a bloody nose, and this morning I woke up crying. I think both are related to stress. But I woke up crying because of my totally creepy dream.

So if this means something towards dealing with my stress, I would love to know. So that way I know what to do/plan for.

Or maybe I'm just crazy.

Clayton is my boyfriend, btw.

I still have the haunting feeling of it.. In it I was walking on campus and it was raining really hard. Lightning was everywhere and I was really scared to walk in it. I remember thinking that I needed to walk in each building to get to the next building to avoid the rain. That is not how campus is set up. This wasn't my real campus, but I have walked this campus several times before in various other dreams. There are lots of arches, it is very green, and quite medieval looking. So, it's kind of jumpy in the beginning. I remember waiting for Clayton and my dad went running by me super fast freaking out about something. Then my brother was there, and then I lost my brother and I was starting to freak out because I didn't know where he went. Clayton finally came but he had to leave me really fast. I waited forever for him, and I only saw him for 2 minutes. I was so upset. So I started walking to my dorm. I lived on campus and felt really good about it. But I didn't feel good about the lightning. Well I get to the elevators at the lobby of my dorm. And there are huge lines everywhere. Just tons and tons of kids filling up the lobby. But there was one elevator. With one kid that had an orange backpack. He looked nervous. And I kept debating with myself on if I wanted to get on. Part of me thought "this would be fast" but the other part thought "there is something really strange about it, don't do it, don't do it". But his elevator opened and my dumb side won the argument! So I ran straight for the elevator. So did another girl. We both arrived there at the same time and some how got in front of the guy with the orange backpack. And me and this girl literally fought on trying to get into the elevator. I got in first and there were only 3 buttons for floors 5, 6, and 7. But they were in the order of 5, 7, 6. Which I just realized is very strange. Anyway, so I press all three assuming that we all live on different floors (I was on the 7th). And this girl right by me was really really tall. Like giant huge. Well I was on the left side of her and we were both facing the front looking at orange backpack guy. And he was staring at us. And you know when you're on an elevator and you step on then the doors go back to prevent from hurting you? Well he kept messing with it. We kept telling him "get on! Get on!". Ugh. So somehow he is able to trick the elevator into thinking he wasn't there. I guess that was why he was messing with it. So his body is half in and half out and the door was shut on him. My goodness. My fear. I realized that the elevator was about to move and here he is, stuck! I thought about kicking him out of there, but for some reason I wasn't able to. Me and tall girl were screaming and crying and he had this horrible smile. I then realized that he was committing suicide. And he chose to do it by ripping his own body in half with the elevator. I was then to the right of the girl sitting in the corner crying and screaming and she was freaking out. Then he started to get smooshed. I saw his head go first, and miraculously there was no blood!

Then I woke up. And I have this horrible feeling from seeing that in my sleep!

Remember-I don't even know orange back pack dude!

Anything helpful would be appreciated.

Thanks!