By this point I'm thinking "Wow, I have a lot of really disturbing dreams." I think this dream started with my mother dropping me off at the grocery store because I thought that she hadn't bought some specific things. I go down the first few aisles and pick up some green vegetables, kale, etc...There is a huge commotion and I hear someone saying that a man is on the roof and is going to commit suicide. (This roof thing seems illogical to me, but somehow the ceiling in here is glass, and there is an upper roof above that to protect the glass ceiling from rain and such. The man is on the upper roof.) So there is a big commotion and I'm watching the people begin to panic, then there is a loud thump and a crack and I look up to see that the man has landed on the glass, which is now all cracked under him, there is blood spattered on the glass. (This looks similar to a movie I watched about a week ago) I feel kind of vague and shocked. There is silence for a moment and then a person shouts to call paramedics, a moment later someone shouts that he's dead. The shoppers are told to please move to the checkouts as soon as possible and exit the store. I want one more thing before I leave; a bundle of green onions. I must also make sure I don't look up to see the body on the roof. So I'm darting through the aisles, but I cannot find any green onions. I find a few single ones, in jars of water like someone was trying to regrow them, but they look awful. I keep running back and forth through the vegetable aisles, but eventually decide I need to leave. Remember, don't look up, don't even look in a direction where you MIGHT see the body on the roof. I see that they've closed all the checkouts except 2, I get in line and when it's my turn, I discover that I do not have my wallet, my card, or any cash. A 2nd employee comes over and tells me that if I give them my phone number, they will search for the account that belongs to my mother and they will make note the owed money on the account. (I think they're trying to get people out of the store by whatever means possible right now). They ask me to type in my phone number, but I cannot remember it. Is it 460? Or 480? 420? (Lol, my phone starts ringing in waking life while I'm typing this up) I look over at the growing line that I'm holding up, and I see an old classmate's younger sister, Julia (probably 9 years old). She leans over and hugs me, patting my shoulder, saying something along the lines of comforting words. (Am I being comforted for dealing with a stressful situation?) Eventually I get the number right and the cashier directs me out the door. Now I have no way to get home, and since I seem to have nothing in my pockets, no phone to use. I sit down in the grassy field on the other side of the parking lot and try and decide what to do. Should I walk home? It's about an hour walk from this store. I see a past classmate also sitting in the grass a ways infront of me. A "class clown" whom I thought was smart but not getting credit for it. I ask him if I can borrow his phone to call my mother, he says sure, gives me the phone, and I dial very slowly to make sure I'm remembering the number. There is a lot of noise and I can hardly hear the phone, but my mother answers and this dream ends with me asking the classmate for a ride home, traveling in his truck, and being dropped off. Any interpretations? What does the suicidal man represent? What's this with people from the past that I've never spoken to showing up? Missing items seems to be a recurring theme? (Missing items, missing onions, missing wallet/card/cash, forgotten number, missing phone) I feel like this dream is loaded with subconscious stuff mg:
I found the glass ceiling to be interesting. There is the common idea of a glass ceiling representing a barrier that is there, even though people deny that it exists. There is also the idea that a glass ceiling doesn't really protect you from the elemente because glass shatters easily. It seems like the suicidal man represents the ending of something, but you want to deny the fact that it is ending or needs to end. That's why you keep having to look away, and why he lands on the glass ceiling, so something is separating you from him but it's not really separating you because you can still see him if you don't look away. Buying vegetables in a store could have to do with you choosing what is good for you. Your mother could represent the idea of taking care of yourself and doing what is right for you (your mother was the one who took care of you and, hopefully, gave you good advide whe you were younger). Onions grow in the ground so that could be another symbol related to hiding things and denying things. Someone trying to regrow the onions but their looking awful could be a message about not being able to change things back to how they were. Your wallet in your dreams could represent your identity. In the dream, when you lose your wallet, the employee says they will look for your mother's account. That makes me think of you reverting back to your childhood, when you hadn't really developed your own identity and were dependent on your parents. I think our not remembering your own phone number also relates to the idea of questioning your identity. When you are about 9 years old is when you start thinking critically and developing your own beliefs, so it's interesting that you are comforted by a girl around that age. I think this also relates to the idea of discovering who you are. Is there anything about the "class clown" that relates to how you feel about yourself?
The "class clown" character seems similar to myself in certain ways (not in the clownish way, but comparing the way we seem to be somewhat depressed and disillusioned with or distrustful of the world) I feel I should note that I was suffering a particularly bad period of depression when I had this dream (I've finally turned a corner, thankfully.) Now that you've pointed some things out, I'm wondering if this dream is related to that. When it gets pretty bad like I was experiencing, it almost feels like a loss of self (loss of identity). I'm usually resistant to getting help with it (resisting looking at the dead body, which could represent an end to suffering?) for a few reasons. Maybe this paints a clearer picture? I can think of a couple ways it would represent that.