Okay in order for you to understand my dream I think you may need a little back history.
I have known this guy my whole life, even before we are able to remember our memories. I have always like this boy through childhood and into teens. During our teen years we had a small I would say summer fling. The problem was that we were in a very small town, and the guys out numbered the girls five to one. Well Alot of our other guy friends had interest in me including his brother, so the guy who was a looker, decided to back off and give them a chance. He was dating this other girl but wasn't happy, because he was in love with me. He had called me and told me this, and then went to break things off. Well she had told him she was pregnant, and him being the boy he was raised to be decided to marry her, even though that wasn't what he wanted.
That was almost eight years ago.
Thing is I never got over him and he never got over me. We are still good friends and we talk when every we see each other and everytime we are around each other, we are still very much drawn to one another.
This time last year he told me that he was leaving her, and when things were over he would be with me. He said he didn't wanna have the blame for him leaving put on me. He has distanced him self as much as possible for a year. He claims that there would be no way I can be the blame if we never see each other.
Now with that said, dec. 31 07, I heard his voice for the first time in a year, but still he claims the divorce is far from settled that I can understand...
now getting to my dream from last night: I was in this town, it looked firmilar but it was nither the small town were he lives, nor the big city I am originally from. I didn't exactly reconize anything around me, but felt like I knew where I was...calm and peaceful.
I was around a group of friends, a group of friends that always hung with me and him. We were looking for something at first I can't remember what, but we came accross this place where people were doing construction(This is what he does) So we are standing and watching them do what ever and I see him, he smiles at me and keeps watching me as he does his work. His best friend who happened to be one of the ones with me, says to me. "We have to go if hes gonna drive us home we have to find the car."
"Oh right, he is driving us home today isn't he." I had replied. So me and his best friend are walking the streets of this place looking for the guys car. I think I see it and we walk up the hill, it looks idential to his car, except the tires are missing and the car looks banged up(This scares me a little because he tends to get in accidents) and I look at his friend.
"Something is wrong" I had said.
"This isn't it, come on." he replies and I follow him up to this really nice looking house with a long path, pink flowers are lining it up to the door.
When I reach the door, I peak in the window and I see him, holding me.
"I think this is it." I say to his friend.
"Your not quite here yet, I don't think this is where we are soppose to be, come on." He said. and he begins to run, like we shouldn't have been there at all. I chase after him, but its like I can't find him anymore. So now I feel alone. I begin walking and I find this big, hotel looking building I am trying to go around it, because I know the guy I am in love with is still working on the other side. But I can't seem to find a way around. So I am walking and I run into my mom and sister.
"Why are you here?" They ask me.
"Well Spike(Thats his bestfriend) And I are getting a drive home with Crash(thats him), but we can't find the car and now I've lost Spike." I replied.
"Well you should have never followed Spike over there, (points to the place with the flowers) your not ready to go there you need to go there. " my sister said pointing into the door. so i enter the door and im infront of the construction site again and he smiles and waves. I head toward him, But then someone grabs my arm, I turn and see Spike.
"You've already been there, you have to find the car, so Crash can take you home." He said.
"But Spike wheres the car." I ask and he points to a parklot just beside the construction and I see Crash's car again. So I head in that direction, but its got a iron fence around it and a gate, so I head for the gate and his wife is standing there.
"Where are you going?" She asks.
"I have to get to Crash's car so he can drive me home." I reply.
"Well you can't go this way." She said. "Not with out Crash."
"But I can't get to Crash." I say.
"Well you better find another way then." She says to me. and I start walking down the street. Spikes standing on the corner, he looks at me and says.
"Your running out of time, you have to find the right car."
"Well can't I check this way?" I ask pointing behind him.
"No you have already been down this road, it doesn't lead to Crashs car and you need to get home try turning around and going straight that way." He says. So I begin to run, feeling like Crash will leave with out me if I can't get to the car. I get to the corner where he is working and I turn, right, to go down beside the construction site and around the other side. Crash is on my left and hes close now, close enough that he speaks.
"What are you doing?" He asks. and smiles.
"Trying to find the car." I reply, "You'll be off soon and if I am ever gonna get home I need to find it." He smiles more.
"The only way your gonna reach the car, is if you come here." He says reaching out for me. I reach up and he takes my hand. he tries to pull me to him, but some one is tugging on him, its his wife.
"Let me go." He says to her.
"No, not if shes who your going to be with." She says. While Spike comes up behind me and pulls me out of Crash's hand.
"You shouldn't be here, this is not the way to the car, Crash has to deal with this on his own." Spike says.
"Well how do I get home?" I ask.
"Like this." Spike says. "That road down there is your past, where I would not let you venture, back to what was is done never can be changed no regrets. The gated area is a guarded place, you can only enter with Crash. The parking lot up the hill, is all crashs cars you couldn't find in the past. The place with the flowers is your destination only when you can find the car. "
"How many times have I done this?" I ask.
"How many times have you and Crash tried to be?" He answered with a question.
"Spike where is the car?" I ask him.
"Its been right in front of you all the time, but you cannot see that can you. Your looking desprately in areas it would have never been." he said.
"I am?" I asked. "How so?"
"You went looking in the past but all you found was many brokened cars, you looked to the future, but there was no car to be found, because you already had it. You tried in his marriage, but you couldnt find the car because it was never there. and now you tried here, you see where his car is but somethings holding him back from guiding you to the car."
"where else can I look?" I ask.
"Where haven't you looked before?" he asks me. So I think for a moment and round the corner back to where I started and there crash's car, parked by the curb. There is a license plate, and the number says 03/31/08 Crash is standing by the passenger door, holding it open Smiling. I walk up he kisses me, and I get in. He closes the door and walks around the side of the car and gets in. Looks at me again kisses me one more time, and says I think we can finally go home....this is when i woke up...
Iam confused i don't understand this at all....can you help me?

I just dont think this guy is as into you as you are into him. I mean, divorces are legal and more acceptable today than ever. He wouldnt stay if he was miserable. First loves are more likely the first stepping stones to a greater love, for when you mature and grow and really understand what it means to love someone.Ever heard the song verse "God blessed the broken road that led me straight to you?" your looking back when you should be looking forward.