Over the past 7 months, I have been struggling with whether or not to leave my marriage and if we are still a good fit for each other (the thought cycle has been going on for years, but has become much stronger recently). We are now at the end of our lease and about to move to a new place and I get pretty anxious about signing a new lease with him. Luckily we have a place to stay for a month while finding a new home so there's no commitment yet, but I'm still wondering if this is the time in my life to make a change. I've been doing a lot of work to heal our relationship and my role in creating our problems, but I still question if I should leave or not. As of last night, I was feeling pretty calm about moving forward at least for now, but the questions always remain. Then I had this dream last night. In the dream, I ventured off on my own, ran into a good friend, got invited to a Mardi Gras party, had a gift made for me to wear to the party, also kissed someone else and felt a major attraction to that person. That person also told me that if you are really attracted to someone, you feel that spark (which I don't in my marriage anymore, but he does towards me). Then my husband arrives in town and suddenly I get really anxious that I can't go to the party and have fun on my own anymore. I feel trapped. He wants to hang out with me and do things he likes to do, but I yearn inside to go to this party. (This is a common struggle I have in real life - between what I want to do and what he wants to do.) Then we walk out of a store and I see a business across the street. The sign/marquee of the store says DIVORCE. I start wondering if this is a sign about what my soul wants me to do and start getting anxious. Then I wake up. I searched "sign" in a dream interpretation website and it said, "To see a sign in your dream, indicates that you need help. You need some direction and guidance in your life. Pay attention to what the sign says and what it is pointing you to do. Perhaps the dream is highlighting "a sign of the times." Does anyone else have experience seeing a sign in their dream and it providing correct guidance?
You are really the only one who can say exactly what message the dream is providing you. I get from your post that you have been seriously considering divorce for a while anyway, so the dream is just reflecting the feelings and wishes that you have in waking life. I think you should make your decision based on what you feel is right in waking life. The dream could be pushing you to make a decision.
I think your dream is trying to tell you what you really want deep down inside and that you feel trapped in your current relationship, you want to go out and have fun and meet people but you're afraid to because you don't want to hurt him by leaving. I know i was in a relationship like that and i stayed around for months after i felt i wanted out but i kept thinking it could change or i could fix something or it'll get better, it never did, in fact the longer i stayed in it, the unhappier i felt and the worse it got. I think before you move out into the new house, i would seriously sit down and think about what you really want. Make a list of the pros and cons and why you want to leave and then talk to him about everything you're feeling. Keeping it all to yourself is just going to drive you crazy. Good luck and i hope everything works out for you.