For several years now I've had a dream featuring a warped version of my local amusement park where I would ride one of the roller coasters, Top Gun, and somehow, my harness would not be locked during my ride. I believe usually it just wouldn't work and the person working would never check mine during the checks. I'd hold on in fear the whole ride to anything that I could to safely make it through the ride. Never did my dream feature arriving back in the station, or dying, just leaving the station and some troubles during the ride.

After a long time, my dream began to feature a different ride, called the Hurler. Same problem, although a different kind of harness, more of a pull-down bar, whereas Top Gun goes overhead (if this even matters). But one day, I was having a conversation online with a friend. Basically, I came to the conclusion that I'm lesbian, or something close to it. I've always known myself as bisexual, but to possibly be completely lesbian was a big shock to me. I think I cried myself to sleep that night at the idea... and I can't remember if I died and went to Heaven, or if it just began in Heaven, but an angel there was showing me and somebody else a little bit of the way around, and I went straight to the Hurler, which was for some reason there. I sit in the seat, and one of the people who checks the bars walked by and said, "Don't worry, it's locked." And I had no problems. And no more dreams.

I've since still continued to consider myself bisexual, and I have a boyfriend which I now have a baby with. I believe sometime before him, maybe during, I've had dreams of the same amusement park, same rides, but no problems.

Last night though, I had the dream again. I went to ride Top Gun, and was standing in line with somebody, possibly my father, although I'm not certain. It looked like a long line, and so he wanted to leave, but I tried showing him how it really was only one more train's wait and to stay. We ended up in such a way that we accidently got to sit in my favorite seats, the front, and sat down and buckled ourselves in. The person who checks the harnesses comes by and starts to mess with mine, saying that I didn't do it right. She spent about 15 minutes and put it in some weird jumbled mess. I went along with how she had it, and had a weird positioning of how I had to hold on during the ride, so again, I couldn't enjoy it, although I was in okay.

So why is this back?

As a bonus, I'll include another recurring dream that came back the night before last, I believe. If not, the night before that. But anyway, I always had dreams about hotels. Going to a hotel with family, with friends, on school vacations, my dreams just loved hotels. Often times it involved going to the pool with my brother, and even more often times, involved being in the elevator and it crashing through either the ceiling or floor. But this time, I'm not sure as to the reasoning behind it, but I was staying in a room with two other girls. One of them started to very aggressively go after me, she had me pushed down onto one of the beds and started to try to kiss me and take my clothes off (but this is something I would normally like). I stopped her because I have a boyfriend, I don't want any mess with her. She tried to convince me otherwise, "It's okay, he's not here, he won't mind you having a girlfriend," but I kept fighting her. Then dream end, I think.

The way I'm feeling in regards to my relationship lately has been that I want to be with a woman, that maybe a woman is all that I truly can connect on a proper level with, but I'm managing mostly okay enough with him and we have a baby to think about too, so I do feel rather stuck. Are my dreams basically just telling me that I screwed up? (I'm thinking the hotel is symbolic of the need for something new, a change, but certainly correct me if you think otherwise!) What do you make of them?

You are clearly at a cross road in life, rollercoaster sometimes represents pathway in life, you have a dilema which is do you stick at the train your on.

In your dreams you were the one who stopped advances from other women which you would normally go for and you were the one who said that it only a train ride away, You probably are looking for peace of mind and security more than anything which you may have to wait for.