So recently I've been having dreams that i remember every time I sleep. For me this is pretty strange as usually I only remember about one dream a week. All of these dreams are different but have a re occurring feeling I'm left with, no matter what the dream always is about something going wrong in my life. Even things that have already happened and had a positive outcome are changed negatively in the dreams. Then last night I had a dream that left me with the strangest feeling I've ever had from a dream. I don't remember all of the details but pretty much what happened was I planned out and followed through on a school shooting. I don't remember any of the people's faces I killed in the dream but I do remember killing a large number of people throughout. Before the dream ended I simply walked away from the school and no one said anything to me as I left as if they didn't know it had been done by me. I was walking to go get picked up by my father but before I reached his car a girl that I know from my school said to me "Who are you?". How she said it didn't even seem like she was mad at what I had done was just surprised I would do that. Then another girl from my school called my name several times wanting to talk to me but when I heard her voice it made me cry and I just got in my fathers car. Once I was in his car all he said was "Well no one knows who shot everyone at your school that was well planned. Why can't you put that much effort into anything?" And I thought to myself "if only you knew" and that's when I woke up. Not sure if it helps but a little about myself: I'm an 18 year old male and about to graduate. I have no resentment towards my school or the people that go there and to be honest am a little sad to be graduating due to not seeing everyone as much ever again. This dream has really weirded me out and any kind of response is more than welcome.
Overall, it sounds like you are feeling kind of depressed. Maybe because you will be leaving school so will miss your schoolmates and the life you had when you were a student at the school. Everything having a negative outcome could have to do with fears about how things will turn out for you in the future. With the school shooting dream - the behavior of the other people in the dream is as though they didn't realize what you had done. Could it be that you are worried that you will have difficulty communicating with people? Regarding killing the other students - even though you aren't actually killing them in waking, they will be going away because you and they will all be leaving the school. The fact that you did kill a lot of people in your dream makes me think that you have some repressed anger or resentment, though.