I had a very vivid dream about a collegue at work who I am in love with in awake life. He is married and in awake life we only have a professional relationship altough it is tense and filled of inuendo. (And do I think he is in love as well?; At least I know he is very interested.)

"In the dream we have had sex (this I just know, in the dream and it is not part of the dream) and then I walk into the kitchen in a place I suppose must be our workplace. A number of our collegues are sitting at the kitchen table. He is telling them some detail about his kids and Christmas (so I suppose it must be around christmas in the dream). I start fussing around the table, wiping away the breed crums and talking in a distant voice. I ask questions about his family, trying to appear normal in front of our collegues. Every one is silent and looking at me and I start over doing it, slipping up and talking in a stressed and fake voice; moving ceaslessly. He gets up from the kitchen table and goes to close the door, shutting it and shutting all of us in in the room. Then he smiles at me; the widest, most tender smile possible - a very happy smile and very protective. He says; "-My little baby, you dont have to do this. They all know." In the dream I just look at each and every one of my collegues and they repeat; " I know," and, someone else, "I knew right away" and a third one, shaking his head as a matter of fact; " Of course, I have always known." etc. They dont seem surprised or seem to mind at all. In the dream I look at them in disbelief and then I just throw myself at the man I am in love with and kiss him violently in front of the rest.

Then in the dream he is all of a sudden some kind of God, an Egptian ancient god; Seth (with the dog's head) and there is a ceremony. He has died and I am heartbroken. Everyone talks about his family and his wife in the ceremony. All of the collegues (from the above kitchen sequence) are talking about him and his wife as if the were a close couple. There is the burial of his body in a sarcophagus and I am crying, very confused that none of them thinks of mentioning me, after what they have just said. Why am I not counted in as a grieving party, since they have said that they know? (The sentiment in this part of the dream, when he has died is heartbreaking and has remained with me all day, it was so real). At the end of the dream a metal seal is handed over to me (some kind of metal object shaped as an Egyptian God or is it an Ankh? It has Egyptian symboles on it.). As it is given to me I am told (?) or it is written (?) or I just know that that when he comes back from the dead, he is coming back only for me, just for me...I remember thinking it is beatiful but bittersweet in the same time, since still - he is dead. "

So why the Egyptian God and what is it all about? It was all so real that I have been confused and malfunctioning all day Today! Why did he have to die, when the dream was going so well?!

You mention tht you are given perhaps an Ankh. Being a symbol of eternity, you are probably hoping for eternal or endless love. The part where he is dead suggests, at least to me, that the dream (the endless love) is dead because he is already committed to another person.

The part with the co-workers who know, well, they probably really do "know." Your affection for each other is probably obvious to everyone. You could try to tone it down if you are self-conscience of it. The part where you embrace him in front of them is your desire manifesting itself in your dream.

As for the God Seth, well since he had a dog's head, you long for your co-worker to be loyal to you and not his wife. I associate dogs with loyalty. Do you?

Dogs and other symbols

Hello and thank you for your suggestions. What you say could of course be possible; like every one I would like eternal love and in the ceremony the seal or ankh is handed over to me with a promiss that he is coming back which suggests such an interpretation. I don't think my collegues actuelly does "know" in real life - in fact I am pretty sure they don't. I am a very reserved person often described as "a riddle rapped in an enigma". In fact, not even the man in question "knows", because I stay as far away as is possible without being rude.

The night after the Egyptian dream I actually had an equally vivid dream; strangly enough on a dog-theme and I have never dreamt of dogs before. In the dream there is a Chiwawa (very very small dog) sitting on my lap. Then there is a Dachshundt walking by and the Chiwawa jumps off my knee: very happy to met and play with a new dog-friend. The Chiwawa runs after the other dog into another room. After a while I get worried because it has gone very quiet in the other room so I follow them to check what is going on. The chiwawa is being pressed into a corner and the bigger dog is holding it down with his legs, peeing on the little dog.

I lift up the little dog who is all soaked in piss. Tears are running down the Chiwawa's face in deepest humiliation. It is like a symbol of the worst kind of dog insult and the little dog can hardly look at me, it is so crushed.

I suppose dog's symbolises loyalty, but also blame (Do you have the saying "wearing the dog's head" in English as well? In Swedish it means getting the blame for something.)
//Karin

Interesting. I'm not familiar with dogs being a symbol of blame, at least not in American culture.

Perhaps you harbor some guilt over your feelings for your married co-worker.

One good sign is that both dogs in your dream are small dogs. As long as you keep your feelings in check without them becoming uncontrolable or hurting anyone else, the dog (blame) will remain small and harmless.