Okay so I just had the wierdest dream, it felt so real I couldn't believe it was a dream when I woke up. So there is this girl right, I have been in love with her the last two years and no matter what I cannot get over her, me and this girl went out for 6 months and it was completely perfect, our love and relationship was so strong like the Romeo and Julliette kind of love. This girl is absolutely perfect looking (I honestly can't describe how beautiful she is, imo she is better than any girl I have ever seen including girls you see on TV and all those models) she is a good girl as well, she is still a virgin and has a perfect personality and we are both 18 now. Now for some fucked up reason I never truly realised how much she meant to me until I lost her even though I loved her that much, I always pushed her away, whenever I had family problems she was there for me and I'd push her away by saying things like "what the fucks it to you?" and "what do you care for" and shit and back at school I would act as though I didn't know her because I didn't want people to know that we were dating but still she would be there for me and she would even go as far as to say things like "lets run away together" and shit when I had a fight with my dad one time, one day I broke up with her because I was so pissed off and I felt like I didn't want to know anybody anymore and shit, I told her I didn't want to know her. So the last time I talked to her was about a month ago, she was having a fight with her boyfriend and I tried to help her but she got pissed at me because I told her to give him a chance, she was like "oh you want me to give him a chance?" I'm like "yeah up to you", then she was like "don't you care?" I go "no" and she got pissed and started ignoring me and broke up with him anyway, she has been ignoring me since. Now here is the wierd part, I thought I was starting to get over her until last night, I had a dream, it felt as real as possible (my first dream since I can remember as well) in the dream she called me up and asked to see me and we ended up getting back together and it was so perfect and romantic, it felt like I really spent the whole day with her and then I woke up, I honestly went crazy, I was thinking "FUCK NO!" "NO" and I started to hit the bed lol, it had felt so real and now I'm more in love with her than ever, how the hell has this dream effected me so much and made it seem so real? also why has it altered my feelings about her? and if it means we are meant to be together how am I meant to talk to a girl that is ignoring me completley? Thanks for your help.
It does seem like you really have feelings for her and you want to be with her and your dream is showing this. However, you have not treated her very well, both in the way that you have spoken to her and in the way that you acted like you were ashamed of her by pretending she wasn't your girlfriend, so I can see why she would not want to be with you. I think that if she is really important to you and you want to be with her you first need to understand yourself more and why you would treat someone you care for that way and how you could make sure you would not treat her badly in the future.
dude the cussing isn't needed trust me i know your fustrated but she may not be the one who is your soulmate or she could be. p.s. i've learned never burn the bridges you use most.