I had this dream when I was a child. The night I had this dream I remember praying to God to take my life. Then I had the following dream.... I was surrounded by bright white light. There was a long staircase in front of me, so I began to climb to the top. When I got there I felt the presense of God. I thougt that God was answering my prayer and I was in heaven. But then I heard a voice telling me that this was a dream. So I asked my request again. One voice told me that he could not help me because I would deny him. I replied that I would never do that. Another voice told me that it was not my time to die yet. So I told him that I did not want to die an old lady in my bed and have my life not even be remembered. yet another voice told me that I would not die an old lady and that I would not even die in the country of my birth. Then he said that the meaning of my life would be found in my death. Thats the end of the dream. I dont know why Im thinking about it 30 years later. Any thoughts?????
How old were you when you had this dream? Fears of dying unremembered or dying in your bed or thoughts about the meaning of life seem like very mature concepts for a child to be thinking about. Could you have experienced the death of someone close to you (even a pet) at about the time you had the dream?