I had a strange dream last night. I don't recall what happened prior to this, but I was walking along a street I didn't know when I saw someone in an odd, abandoned factory kind of building I thought I knew. It was a brick building and the places where windows should have been had flaps of fabric. The girl I knew, who has the same first name as me but a different last name, had pulled the fabric back and looked out briefly. I knew her last name was french because she had married a french man. So I called to her, asking if she would be going to France this summer, then I thought about the fact that summer is over because this is October already. She didn't respond and didn't seem to recognize me. I crawled into the building through the open windows and up to her on the second floor. She was eating a small crab cake on a paper plate. Someone else appeared who I was supposed to know, but in reality I made the girl up. We both grabbed up forks and started to share the small cake. But I clumsily knocked it off onto the floor. I don't recall any of us talking, but I immediately left the room to find another crab cake to make up for the one I ruined. I came across an odd room where a few people were and they were selling food. They didn't have any crab cakes as they had moved on to dessert, but it was on small paper plates so I just knew it was where the girl with the same name as me had bought it. I decided to make up for my error by buying two desserts to share instead of just one. I picked them up, then worried I had no money. I looked in my purse and saw I had a ziplock type baggie full of snack mix and thought I would try to pay with that. But when I got up to the counter, I realized they probably would not take that as payment and I also realized I did still have 15 dollars I had been holding on to for some time. The desserts were only three each. But the woman at the counter argued I'd have to pay for the snack mix. I explained it was in my purse, that I had brought it with me. She said forcefully that if that was the case, I was required to bring it up front ahead of time to show her and since I hadn't she would still have to charge me. I argued I had never been there before and didn't know the rules. I did see some snack mixes for sale that I hadn't noticed before, but none of them looked anything like what I had in the baggie and I pointed that out. She insisted I would have to pay and I insisted I would not. I started to leave and the woman called out a big, burly woman that kind of looked like the bounty hunter guy. She roughed me up some, but I would not relent due to the principle of the matter, insisting I had not stolen the snack mix. She knocked me to the floor and laid on top of me. She was so heavy that I smothered to death.

This dream really disturbed me for many reasons. First, I have noticed when I wake up that I seem to be having trouble breathing and a lot of that is due to being overweight. So the fact that food is so heavily involved in the dream makes sense. Second, the money part is true. I have been unemployed for six full months as of this week. My husband gave me 15 bucks to go to a movie last weekend, but my friend paid so I've been holding onto the money. I'm very worried about money and I don't have enough to go see a doctor right now. Third, dying because I held onto a principle made sense to me. My last job was a disaster and I'm trying to hold out for one that means something and is in a better place to live. My husband is also looking for a better job with better pay and something to get us out of the big city where we are not happy. But in this economy, I feel pressured into being desperate and just taking anything I can find. This is a real struggle for me. I have been out of grad school for over five years now, almost six. Finding my first job was hard because the class of 2003 was the first in my industry to be hit very hard by 9-11. When I did find my first job, I held it for three years, but it didn't pay well. I found a job that doubled my pay, but it didn't work out and lasted only 4 months. I lost it literally about 2 weeks before they started talking about a recession. My husband and I have struggled so much for so long that I am really having a hard time accepting what is going on. I often feel I would rather die than have things continue the way they have been. All I want is a couple of decent paying jobs for both of us, where we are treated like human beings by our employers, and in a place where we can be happy. I admit I have run out of patience. We also are not in a financial situation where we can wait much longer anyway. Our lease is up at the end of November. My husband has to keep his job here to pay for his truck. He already declared bankruptcy about 3 years ago, so that isn't and option and I am worried I can't declare bankruptcy because of my profession. Besides, most of my debt is through student loans which I can't get rid of anyway. At the end of November, I will have to go home to live with my parents as the only possible source of income I have at the moment is substitute teaching in the county where my parents live--something I really don't want to do for many reasons. I understand a lot of other people are going through this sort of thing too, but I can't help feeling like my husband and I have paid our dues already. He worked hard to get a master's degree and I have a doctorate level degree plus a professional license. It is past time for something to go right and pay off for us.

I can't quite figure out if the dream is a warning, a wish fulfillment, or something else. Is my health really all that bad with my weight and breathing problems that the dream is warning me to do something about it or I will die? Was it just wish fulfillment that I wouldn't have to move back home temporarily if I did die? Or am I just thinking about my problems so much I am afraid of dying even more and it surfaced in my dream?

Any thoughts would be appreciated.

Hi and Welcome.

You do have good insight into the dream. It does reflect what is going on with you in reality. The wrestling match with the bounty hunter woman was a signal that you feel defeated by your financial circumstances. But you also fought back, which is a good sign that you are not ready to give up.

This part of the dream--"...but I immediately left the room to find another crab cake to make up for the one I ruined."---is you are assessing what needs to be done to make up for past mistakes. This could also be a message to take stock of what's important and what isn't.

Your breathing problems could also be a symptom of stress and anxiety. I've been through that myself.

"I can't quite figure out if the dream is a warning, a wish fulfillment, or something else. Is my health really all that bad with my weight and breathing problems that the dream is warning me to do something about it or I will die? Was it just wish fulfillment that I wouldn't have to move back home temporarily if I did die? Or am I just thinking about my problems so much I am afraid of dying even more and it surfaced in my dream?"

Only you can answer these questions. But I think you already know the answers. You need to ask yourself, what is the most important thing right now? Try to make that your first priority.

Good luck. :fairy:

You need to have a sleep study done. I believe you have sleep apnea and this is dangerous if not treated. The sleep labs are comfortable. And the experience is well worth it.....your health is worth it....but now to your dream:

The girl in your dream has something you long for. She is unaware that you envy her in some ways. You feel a bit inadequate at times and need to begin thinking positively. You realize that living under one roof with your family is difficult even in the best of circumstances and don't want to go that route. But, if this happens just make the best of it. You're good at what you do, but your health is preventing you from making some changes. Please, even if you don't have insurance, go to have a sleep study done. Your doctor can recommend one Give him the information about how you are feeling when you wake up. It isn't just your stress that is causing you to feel this way. You have sleep apnea. If you can't pay for it, let it go to the collection agency. We've all been there before. Your health is the most important problem that needs to be addressed. Please do. And remember, everything happens for a reason. Your life comes first. All other problems will work out eventually. Good luck sweetie.
Scorpio52





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I had a strange dream last night. I don't recall what happened prior to this, but I was walking along a street I didn't know when I saw someone in an odd, abandoned factory kind of building I thought I knew. It was a brick building and the places where windows should have been had flaps of fabric. The girl I knew, who has the same first name as me but a different last name, had pulled the fabric back and looked out briefly. I knew her last name was french because she had married a french man. So I called to her, asking if she would be going to France this summer, then I thought about the fact that summer is over because this is October already. She didn't respond and didn't seem to recognize me. I crawled into the building through the open windows and up to her on the second floor. She was eating a small crab cake on a paper plate. Someone else appeared who I was supposed to know, but in reality I made the girl up. We both grabbed up forks and started to share the small cake. But I clumsily knocked it off onto the floor. I don't recall any of us talking, but I immediately left the room to find another crab cake to make up for the one I ruined. I came across an odd room where a few people were and they were selling food. They didn't have any crab cakes as they had moved on to dessert, but it was on small paper plates so I just knew it was where the girl with the same name as me had bought it. I decided to make up for my error by buying two desserts to share instead of just one. I picked them up, then worried I had no money. I looked in my purse and saw I had a ziplock type baggie full of snack mix and thought I would try to pay with that. But when I got up to the counter, I realized they probably would not take that as payment and I also realized I did still have 15 dollars I had been holding on to for some time. The desserts were only three each. But the woman at the counter argued I'd have to pay for the snack mix. I explained it was in my purse, that I had brought it with me. She said forcefully that if that was the case, I was required to bring it up front ahead of time to show her and since I hadn't she would still have to charge me. I argued I had never been there before and didn't know the rules. I did see some snack mixes for sale that I hadn't noticed before, but none of them looked anything like what I had in the baggie and I pointed that out. She insisted I would have to pay and I insisted I would not. I started to leave and the woman called out a big, burly woman that kind of looked like the bounty hunter guy. She roughed me up some, but I would not relent due to the principle of the matter, insisting I had not stolen the snack mix. She knocked me to the floor and laid on top of me. She was so heavy that I smothered to death.

This dream really disturbed me for many reasons. First, I have noticed when I wake up that I seem to be having trouble breathing and a lot of that is due to being overweight. So the fact that food is so heavily involved in the dream makes sense. Second, the money part is true. I have been unemployed for six full months as of this week. My husband gave me 15 bucks to go to a movie last weekend, but my friend paid so I've been holding onto the money. I'm very worried about money and I don't have enough to go see a doctor right now. Third, dying because I held onto a principle made sense to me. My last job was a disaster and I'm trying to hold out for one that means something and is in a better place to live. My husband is also looking for a better job with better pay and something to get us out of the big city where we are not happy. But in this economy, I feel pressured into being desperate and just taking anything I can find. This is a real struggle for me. I have been out of grad school for over five years now, almost six. Finding my first job was hard because the class of 2003 was the first in my industry to be hit very hard by 9-11. When I did find my first job, I held it for three years, but it didn't pay well. I found a job that doubled my pay, but it didn't work out and lasted only 4 months. I lost it literally about 2 weeks before they started talking about a recession. My husband and I have struggled so much for so long that I am really having a hard time accepting what is going on. I often feel I would rather die than have things continue the way they have been. All I want is a couple of decent paying jobs for both of us, where we are treated like human beings by our employers, and in a place where we can be happy. I admit I have run out of patience. We also are not in a financial situation where we can wait much longer anyway. Our lease is up at the end of November. My husband has to keep his job here to pay for his truck. He already declared bankruptcy about 3 years ago, so that isn't and option and I am worried I can't declare bankruptcy because of my profession. Besides, most of my debt is through student loans which I can't get rid of anyway. At the end of November, I will have to go home to live with my parents as the only possible source of income I have at the moment is substitute teaching in the county where my parents live--something I really don't want to do for many reasons. I understand a lot of other people are going through this sort of thing too, but I can't help feeling like my husband and I have paid our dues already. He worked hard to get a master's degree and I have a doctorate level degree plus a professional license. It is past time for something to go right and pay off for us.

I can't quite figure out if the dream is a warning, a wish fulfillment, or something else. Is my health really all that bad with my weight and breathing problems that the dream is warning me to do something about it or I will die? Was it just wish fulfillment that I wouldn't have to move back home temporarily if I did die? Or am I just thinking about my problems so much I am afraid of dying even more and it surfaced in my dream?

Any thoughts would be appreciated.