Hi, I'm writing cuz there is this guy that I've known for a long time, since I was a little girl. My dad and his mom dated when I was younger and one day he did something to me that caused trouble in my life. No one found out till later, only my mom found out. My dad and his mother never knew. Anyway I moved from where I used to live and it had been about 7 years when I went back to visit. I went to visit my dad and family. When I visited I was engaged, although I went alone. I saw him but I didn't think much of him, pretty much I didnt think anything. This year I went again to visit and stayed for a whole month, this time I had broken up with my fiance. I asked my dad to get in contact with him and his mom and he did. On a Monday afternoon he visited me. As soon as I first saw him, I froze. I felt something so big for him. He called me his lil sister (he is like 6 years older than me). We had dinner with the family that same night. Then two nights after getting out of work, he went to see me again. From then on we spent a lot of time together. We went to the beach and we held hands, he was caressing me. Still he'd say that I was his lil sister (not blood) and I'd say he was my brother. My grandma, stepmom, and aunt noticed how I was all googly when someone would mention him so they figured I might have a crush on him. The night before I left, he tried kissing me but I backed off. He told me to just forget about it, that nothing hapenned. I then tried asking him If he remembers anything that he did when we were younger and he said no. He seemed honest. By the way, while I was there he broke up with his gf of a long time. It's now been almost a month since I came back home. Before I left we switched e-mails so we could keep contact. Ever since I've been back home, he writes to me at least twice a week. He tells me how he misses me and how much he needs me. How he has gotten depressed and he has never felt like this before. Still he calls me his lil sis and I call him my bro. My grandma, aunt and stepmom say that he has come to care for me so much more than as a sister. He cares for me as a man cares for a woman. He sent me an e-card saying "Before you I was a lonely heart. Then I met you and our hearts became one". With it, it had a mesage saying how much he missed me. At the end of every e-mail he says "I love you". I write to him telling him about my problems and things I cant tell others. I tell him that I care for him as well. Its gotten to the point that I dream of him and I think of him everyday. Just thinking of him gives me goosebumps. I check my e-mail eveyday jus to see if he wrote and when my inbox is empty, me heart feels incomplete, so gloomy and it makes me wanna cry.

Now I'm wondering if he really does care for me as more than just a sister? Maybe as a woman? And do you guys think I might have fallen in love with him? Do you think its wrong? What should I do? Should I tell him or I should keep it to myself? Please HELP, give me advice, I'm open to whatever you guys want to say.

Thanks

well im no expert, but to my opinion, i suggest you tell him how you feel. im sorry to say that not all of us get what we want so if he rejects you you surely will feel a hole in your heart because yes you are in love with him ; and understand completely because you know him since childhood, but if he feels the same way, you'll feel a lot better...! that's all i can tell you! good luck,
grace

Thanks

Hey, thanks. I followed your advice and I sent him a message telling him how I felt. Although I'm not sure if he will write back because last time he wrote back was over a week ago and he had told me he was having trouble with his computer. Thanks for the advice though, it really helped me.

sure! anytime

how'd everything go?

Hey, thanks for askking. Well I havent heard from him since August 31. I spoke with my dad friday and he told me that he told my dad to tell me that he was having problems with his comp. :rasta: *sigh* lol

awwww that's so sweet! well it's obvious that he really likes you so good luck and remember: if he's not the one, you'll find your prince charming:blushing:
f. grace!
age:12 ill b 13 on february so look who gave you that advice!

Wow, hi there Gracie!! Thanks for the advice, it was good. Btw today I called his grandma (since he had asked me to keep in touch with her), I asked her bout him and she said that he had written to her a while ago asking about me and telling her to tell me not to worry about him, thats hes doing alright. Although right now hes comp was messed up and he was working. I guess thats good.

wow keep on trying to keep in touch with him... try calliing him a weekend so u guys can see each other more often... when was the last time u saw him?