The first time I had this kind of dream I dreamed I was downtown in this ghetto apartment where I used to hang out with my ex. He wasn't in the dream, but my friends and his friends were and we were all partying. Suddenly I wondered out into a crowded chaotic lobby where I was complimented by some gangster looking fellow. He grabbed my wrist, shouted out "hey, tag this one" and before I knew it I was sprayed with some sort of liquid that made me begin to pass out. I tried to scream for help, but all I heard was me screaming in my head - I couldn't talk or make a sound. A friend saw it happen and rescued me. I later found out that the men were going to take me back to their apartment and force themselves on me had I not of been rescued. The second dream I had similar to it, was that I was at my house and there were these beautiful frogs hopping around. The first time I caught one, it got all sticky and I found out it was poisonous. I was fine, but it happened several more times and then finally I guess the 'poison' had built up and I began to pass out, tried to scream for help - but couldn't make a sound. The scream was only for me to hear once again. And then the last dream I've had similar to this occurred last night. I was in my bed, all comfortable, but then I saw this giant spider that looked like a daddy long leg. Now, knowing that these spiders are harmless I simply attempted to grab it by it's leg so I could throw it out. Suddenly, once I got a hold of it's leg, it grew these points at the end of each leg and transformed into what looked like a cross of a giant bee or large furry spider. It bit me, leaving two red marks from it's fangs in my hand. I again proceeded to pass out, tried to scream, once again it was muted and only heard by me in my head. In none of the dreams do I recall actually passing out - I just started to feel as though I was slipping out of consciousness about to pass out. I am at a loss of if it has meaning, or if I just keep having strange dreams that somehow are similar to one another. While I am at this, I would also like to include a dream that was ALL too real. I was driving my old Mustang and had to drive these two druggies back somewhere. I wasn't supposed to be driving this car, because it had a lot of problems, but I did anyway. I parked on the highway because I realized that it was falling apart. I don't know what happened to the people with me, I think they just left me behind. I recall stepping out of my car to find a little business on the side of the road. I decided to just ditch my car there and walk towards it. But to my surprise, I suddenly remembered my dead body was in the backseat and I didn't want to just leave it there. I had to find somewhere to put it. So at this point, I realized I was dead, but was functioning like I was alive. I carried my body, and it was just so real.. it was cold, and heavy, and I walked over to the building. No one could see me, and I don't know if they could see my body, but I dropped it and remembered thinking "oh my gosh, this is my body I don't want to ruin it!" and also thinking "my gosh, I look SO beautiful" but I don't remember what happened after that. If anyone has any ideas what any of these dreams could relate to I would highly appreciate your opinions! I'm at a loss for why I have been having these insanely wild dreams!
Well, the screaming in your head probably has to do with either you not being able to express your feelings about something in waking life or you repressing thoughts that you need to face. The first dream sounds like it has to do with you feeling helpless and that you don't have control over something. The dream with the beatiful frogs turning out to be poisonous could have to do with things not being what they first appear to be. Have you been in a situation where you trusted someone and it turned out to be a mistake? That also relates to the idea of not having control. The poisonous frogs could represent toxic people. The same goes for the spider dream - something that sems harmless turing into something very dangerous and also kind of poisonous (bees sting with venom). The dream of you being dead but outside your body could have to do with you feeling disconnected, maybe disconnected from your emotions. Wanting to get back to your body could have to do with needing to reconnect.That could relate to the muted screaming, the idea of you repressing something that you need to face.
The only thing I repress most often is when my dad died last January. We found him dead and I try really hard not to think about it or talk about it or it upsets me. Strange, but a few weeks before he passed I had a dream he died. But anyway, like I said, everything else in my life is going quite well so.. thanks Marcia