Okay, so, I just had this dream (sorry I wrote so much, I'm keyboard-happy) and it really scared me... a looot. I was hoping that somebody could PLEASE interpret this for me? I'm an artist, and I promise to do something for you in return. Thank you so much. I was in this little cabin with this guy I really had a crush on (I think I'm practically in love with him, but he has a girlfriend, aaaand I'm pretty young for love, anyway. But whatever. Moving on!). The cabin-- in my dream, not in actual real life-- was part of the school we both went to, which was just a short walk away from my house, but again, was a little farther in my dream due to it being just weird. After one day of school, I got in his mom's car. I was relaxed, even though, as I watched everything unravel before me in my head, I didn't really know where we were going, but I still felt like I DID know, and that everything was alright. His mom was driving, his little brother in the front seat, and he was in the back with me. We're going to his house, I find out. It's a long way away (but again, in reality, it's litterally right across the school which is just a mile from me.) But when we pull in the driveway, the cabins are right bext to his house. But if you went in, you could still go through parts of the school which was quite a far ways away... Weird. Now, we're just hanging out by ourselves, actually playing videogames that are in the cabin and eating snacks. I'm having a lot of fun, but then we both just automatically decide to put things away and go to bed or... something? I don't know, it just seemed like that. We're turning off the lights and talking normally when I go, "Phillip?" He asks yes, and is standing right in front of the room where we just where. It doesn't have a door, or really any wall covering it from the hallway. I was standing in the room across from that which looked just like his only empty, I think. I walk across it to him, who's still and facing me. I, after hesitating, say something tightly around the lines of "I really, really like you. And I have for nearly forever." I got on my toes a little bit (since, in the dream, he's that taller than me for some reason) and my lips brush against his, but before actually kissing him I pull away and apologize (since he had a girlfriend and everything). He said "No, it's alright" and then started crying, and adds, "But I have to tell Britney." I nod and I don't hug him, I think, because I'm too scared to, but if I did it was quick. After talking more about it and crap, I remember going down through the cabin further and further, and I was surprised to find other people. I found this one old guy (like, mid-fifties?) sitting on a little couch that looked just like the one I had been sitting on before with Phillip. In fact, the room looked exactly the same, even though I was just moving away from it. He was talking about how Phillip was supposed to be taking care of the school's cabin, and that he no longer was because he was leaving now. As I went further, I saw a bunch more people, and now I can recall they were all dudes at my school (like, *10-12 grade guys). After I got to the end, the door opened up to the school, and I left to the short walk to my house.* Suddenly, me and Phillip are looking at houses. We're at this yellow, orange and white and brown one that's really the one right by mine, but instead it's just on the other side and no one lives in it. We're not older or anything, we're the same age, and yet we're looking for houses to buy. Reeeaaaally odd! It's snowing, and he really likes it and insists on looking on the inside, but I keep yelling at him, "No, it looks like sh*t. This house looks like sh*t," like a snobby little eight year old brat. But then, I pop up at my grandma's bedroom for some reason, already in the middle of another "scene" in my dream. Firstly, it's weird to be here, because we NEVER go to my grandma's house. But my mom was on her bed like it was hers, I was sitting on an old leather wheelchair right by it that my grandma doesn't really use but has it as a surface for holding things and stuff, and dream boy is standing right by me. We're watching the tv, and I don't think my grandma was even there. Apparently, what just happened was really a movie we were watching about our lives... made in less than a day. Actually, I'm not sure whether it was the same day, or the one next, but it was still light out. I asked why they made me so... You know, cranky. I don't remember the rest of the conversation (he probably said in response "It's just a movie"), but this next part is what really scared me.* We were all in metal folding chairs like the one at my school, wrapped in old knitted blankets. My mom (who's there again for some reason) is knitting. The order we are in our seats is her, me, and Phillip. I look at the end of the block across the street, and at the corner where the next one starts, the salvation army *is right there. In reality, it normally isn't, but I don't pay attention. Then it starts snowing. In fact, within a second, everything's magically covered in snow. Again, another odd thing I don't notice. "Phillip, look- first snow of the year!" I said, catching some snow flakes on my tongue. He ignores me, looking lost in thought. Suddenly, we've switched seats, so I'm sitting at the end if the three chairs. My mom and him start talking about this weird, distant, screaming and crackling noise that Phillip was just trying to zone in on a moment ago. He looks around, and finds what it was. Suddenly, the wind and snow gets worse. He goes, "Oh my god! Allison, look!" and points to what it is. I look around his hand, and see that at the edge, almost right on the road of the block, just two houses down is a fire. At first I'm startled because I think a house across the street is on fire, but then I really see that it's this girl with a crowd of people surrounding her and screaming, and now I'm very startled and I start to panic. There's this one big guy in front of her that looks like he's trying *to put it out, and in shock, I grab a bmanket and start to run towards them, but I stop as soon as I see him violently pick her up and smash her against the ground like a ragdoll. Practically mortified, I run back. I scream at my mom to call the cops, but they're both just staring. (Now, from past dream experience, whenever something really bad like this happens and I'm with people I care about, they NEVER move. They just sit or stand there and get dragged into it, and bad things happen to them, too. In the dream I kinda remembered this, which was why I didn't bother trying to drag them along inside.) He's beating her more and the people are screaming more, (I specifically remember one of them calling out "Katie!"), and I decide to run inside in case he attacks me. As I sprint for the door at the side of my house, I nearly crap my pants as Katie's body is thrown across my path, and a girl's chasing after it. I scream, also feeling ashes from it sting against the left side of my right leg. I've never been more scared in my life. I start to move back and try to go around, but then I woke up, breathing really hard and sweating all over.
I think the change in distances, with you having to travel far to get to his house but then the cabins being right there have to do with you being "so near, but yet so far" in terms of your relationship with him. There is something about him that attracts you to him but you are also kept away from doing anything about it, by your age and the fact that he has a girlfriend. The part with you saying you like him and start to kiss him sounds like you are expressing how you really feel, but you pull away and apologize because you reality sets in. Him saying it's OK but he has to tell Britney is your unconscious' way of trying to make it OK. The old guy sounds like he is an older, more mature version of Phillip. I think the idea of Phillip leaving and not taking care of the cabin has to do with Phillip having new responsibilities and things going on in his life. (Is Phillip much older than you?) You could be thinking about how this would affect his relationship with his girlfriend. That relates to the idea of you and he looking at houses - something an older couple would do. You could also be thinking about what you want your future to be like. When you act like a snobby eight-year-old, that sounds like the part of you that still wants to be a kid. Maybe even though you like Phillip, part of you is worried that if you did get into a relationship with him, you would be growing up too fast. Your mother taking your grandmother's place on the bed and you sitting in the wheelchair has a similar theme of someone being in the position of an older person - behaving like someone who is older before they are ready. I think the snow and then the fire have to do with your emotions. The snow can do with being numb or hiding your emotions. This could have to do with Phillip or with something bad that has happened to you or bad feelings that you have that you have been trying to forget about or repress. I think the girl who is on fire and then gets smashed represents you. You are afraid if you express your feelings or if you face whatever is troubling you it will destroy you. It's interesting that in your dreams, when something bad happens, the people you care about don't do anything. Do you feel that people don't listen to you in waking life?
Yeah, I do feel that way sometimes. But to answer your question, no, he's my age! Sometimes, I even feel like I'm older than him... Haha I think I can mostly agree on what you said about the girl getting smashed as well, (even though it was what I found to be most surprising. ) I decided a while ago that my feelings were all silly, and were going to go away soon and if he didn't like his girlfriend anymore he would have breaken up with her by now- which really seems impossible (they've been together for two years!) Okay, enough blabbing! Thank you very[/] much for the interperation! I really do appreciate it. Is there something I could do back for you? Digital or traditional painting, a cartoon, portait, something?