Ok my first girlfriend and I split after over a year of being together. While we were together it was the happiest time of my life. Since then i havent been as happy. I was head over heels for her and she split with me which was devastating to say the least. Throughout the past few years we been split I have always been thinking of her and wondering how she is doing. I havent seen her since we split. And in my dreams that I keep having I see talk to her for the first time since the split up, talk, then we get back together and are together for about a day or two then she has to leave back home and its all happy while were together that day or two then when she leaves its really heart breaking.

I do miss her and and everything but I cannot just go and contact her because she has her family and her new life that she is probably enjoying. We lived aways apart and would always see eachother every other week or so for a few days ect. Thats what the dream feels like. We see eachother for couple days then she says she has to go and then the heart break sits in again. I still love her to be brutally honest and this all is kinda painful.

Any help? Thank you

It sounds like your soul and heart needs closure my friend. I had a similar experience as you. Couldn't get over my ex. Had dreams about her for close to four years. My dreams were indicating to me that I had to get closure in order to move on. Sometimes we develop soul ties or heart ties that are so strong that we can't move on. Maybe you should contact her so you can get closure. If it's not meant to be you'll know. There is someone special for you out there. You'll never find that person if you dont let her go. To break those soul ties you need to get rid of any old belongings or pictures that belonged to this person or remind you of her. Verbally speak that you choose to break this soul tie and that you release this person. Things will shift for you. Focus your thoughts in a different direction. We choose what we focus on. I had to purposely direct my thoughts away from my ex. I pray that you get closure and that your heart will heal. God had a girl for you. Seek Him in this season

Yes I agree. But I just don't see myself contacting her. We did leave on relatively decent terms. I did say some stuff I want to apologize to her face to face which I still feel bad for. I just think if I ever said anything to her she would just laugh at the fact I contacted her. But like I said there are things I want to apologize for that I'm still feeling bad for today.

I think it is important for you to apologize if you feel the urge to. If you release some of these feelings, maybe it will help you move on. Don't forget to forgive yourself as well. Don't be hard on yourself. We all make mistakes. What's important is that we learn from them and don't repeat them. Be blessed

Yes you're right. I did apologize the last time we ever spoke. It was through Facebook. We havent seen eachother since the split up. Id rather it be face to face but I doubt I'll ever see her again. I think in most part it was me blaming myself and being hard on myself. As corny as it sounds I apologized to myself through a mirror haha. I feel alot better right now. The things I said to her just make me sick now when I think about it. I have always wished her all the best and happiness in the world. I'll pray that it comes my way soon . Thank you for your help! I am very appreciative! May god bless your kind soul!

Good for you Mr. Wonderful! There is power in self forgiveness. May your heart experience resurrection this Easter season. I'm glad I could help. God Bless