So last night I drempt that my dad, who in real life allegedly committed suicide by swimming out into the ocean 6 years ago (no body found, unconfirmed witness), was still around. It was like that event never happened in the dream, rather I had just been out of contact or something. He was even a friend on Facebook. My mom and him were friends and were going to do yoga together in a cabin with funny balloons, but it didn't happen. However, they were on good terms and good friends. In real life, I have two Facebook accounts -- one for friends and one for family. In my dream, I logged out of my friends account and onto my family one where I saw he had posted something, I don't remember what. It had been posted 23 minutes ago, and so I called him and said something like, "Oh I saw you post, I know you're around." I wanted to hang out. Then I'm at my mom's house, he's there looking happy and youthful, and he invited me to come to this Halloween event that in real life happens every year in my town where a lot of people like to get drunk. My dad was an alcoholic (the main cause of his likely suicide), yet in the dream was sober. It was me who was wanting to get drunk for Halloween, as my mom said "Oh you're going to get trashed?" in a joking way in the dream, but then I remember that I'm 9 months pregnant (which I am in real life) and so I can't get drunk or even drink at all -- and I'm fine with that. It felt so real. In the dream, I was just wondering why I had been out of contact and wished I had stayed in contact more (over the years that in real life, he's been dead presumably). I really miss my dad now when I haven't really since it all happened.... thanks to a dream. What does it all mean? I almost feel like my dad's not dead at all, but rather, missing and out of touch (which could be true). I feel like I'm going to run into him or something -- which there is only a microscopic possibility of. ETA: Just remembered part 2 of this dream. In real life, the father of my soon to be born daughter never wants to meet her or have anything to do with her. He is currently beginning a relationship with my former best friend. I drempt that I went to his work pretending to be a customer to get information on his salary. His boss was telling me like how much his employees make (as if it's my business) because he thinks I'm interested in their services. I want this information so that I can take it to court since the SOB works under the table and I plan on getting him for child support. I didn't think he was at work, but then I see him. I try to walk away quickly so he doesn't see me, but he does and he runs after me. I run down into a parking lot that isn't there in real life, and he catches up. I don't remember what he said, but it's an awkward confrontation. In real life he doesn't want to ever meet his daughter, yet we live in a very small town just 2 minutes away from one another. A run in is bound to happen eventually.
It's normal to dream about someone who is dead as though they are still alive. They are still alive in your memory, after all. You are probably having the dream now because you are pregnant, and you becoming a parent makes you think about your own parents and the hope that your father is still alive has probably grown stronger. The father of your child not wanting to meet your daughter is also probably bringing back memories of your own father because in a way he abandoned you by being an alcoholic and eventually comitting suicide. When your father is sober but you are the one who wants to get drunk, it could be you feeling that somehow that you are at fault for what happened to your father. (Small children often blame themselves for things that go wrong in their parent's lives.) Part of you could also be worried that you will turn out to be the kind of parent your father was - worried that you will be a bad mother to your child. Your father being sober could also be the way you wish your father had been all the time, so your dream is a way of living out your wish. I think Part 2 of the dream could just be a fantasy about getting back at the father of your child for not taking more responsibility.
all i can say is don't dream about getting back at him do it. i'm a guy (don't have kids..........yet) and if i did have kids even if i didn't like her i'd take care of the kid. all i can say is if he won't take care of that baby-in the words of Tyler Perry/Madea- Lock His Ass Up! stop worrying about him he is your past. don't look at what he's doing instead do as you need to do to succeed in life. and he's got a problem with my logic tell him to come to tifton, ga.
the best style to get if you are just starting to use guns would be a dan wesson 357 revolver. warning clean often.
OP - DONT GET A GUN!! i really disagree with this (even if you are all kidding) ...... but definitely, I agree with Marcias reply! I dont have much of an interpretation for you, but I salute you for being a strong independent woman, you have been through a lot of hardships, and I think you are coming out the stronger side, for your former best friend to go off with the father of your child is really just sick!!! how could a normal human being do that!!! this guy (the father of your baby) should be taken for all the money he's got!!! But please, PLEASE dont use any gun!!!!!!
phew! lol! thank god!! when i read this, i was like "noooooo!!!" best of luck anyway 13fullmoon! do women everywhere proud!