I just had my first lucid dream in like a year. I had almost begun wondering if I had lost my ability to, or if I had just simply decided it was no longer a skill worth keeping. I used to be a very practiced lucid dreamer, and I still consider my ability with it advanced. I've had nearly 100 lucid dreams or more.

I'm in my house and everything is normal... is how it should be and I feel lucid, even though I have yet to realize I'm dreaming. And then my futon scoots forward on its own. I look at it, feeling freaked out as if there's spirits or ghost moving it. I then tell myself it must have been a strong gust of wind, or I try to somehow rationalize it as I don't believe that even if spirits do exist that they can't interfere with physical objects like that. So I scoot it back, slightly shaken, but I continue on with cleaning or whatever I'm doing. Then it moves again, and then I'm hella freaked out. I try pushing it back, but something is pushing against me, invisible -- fighting me. I'm trying to deny that it is a ghost but if feels like a person pushing it. So then I gasp and stand back and it slides all the way across the room. My cat is in the room and suddenly he disappears, but is split in half, yet walking away. I realize I'm being fucked with by ghosts, and I start to realize that's impossible, I'm dreaming. My mind is going to a dark place, and I'm in a nightmare. I try to scream, but then I see and hear myself on the outside sleeping in bed - soundless. Nothing comes out of my mouth but a silent scream - a faint sigh. I then realize I'm dreaming as I come back into the dream from dreaming that I'm viewing myself from the outside. I say, outlound, "Nothing is what it appears to be." And my voice echoes like a chorus of voices, a really demonic sound that frightened me. I then realize I'm not going to wake up. So I close my dream eyes and think try to think of happy thoughts. Kittens, rainbows -- anything. And happy images come to mind, but then I open my dream eyes again and the half a cat (the tail part) is still there, tail waving as if alive.

And then I realize, well hey... I'm lucid. What now? In my waking life, I told myself if I ever get another lucid dream that I wanted to go see my super sexy ex boyfriend and 1st love and have sex with him lol. So I remember this and I'm like... alright! I know I don't have the ability to teleport or make objects of people appear out of no where in lucid dreams, so I fly out the window and fly up the mountain to see him. As I'm flying, I am questioning the lucid dream atmosphere, trying to learn as much from it as I can. I question my mental state... "does this feel more like a dream? Or does it feel exactly like waking life?" A question I asked myself to explore the validity of lucid dreaming. I always remember lucid dreams with the same clarity as a regular dream, but I always remember feeling at the moment that it's real. So I further explored this, and thought to myself in the dream, I will remember this like a dream, but it doesn't at all in any way feel like one. I remember thinking it feels exactly like waking life, no difference at all -- this is amazing and astonishing. I took in the details of the surroundings and felt my physical state, the wind blowing on me, the feeling of flying... It's a blur now, all except for what I told myself in the dream that it felt like... I remember what I was thinking about the sensations, but not the sensations themselves.

As I'm flying to see my old lover, I pass over his new fiancée and a judgmental mutual friend.. one who a long time ago, never wanted me to date him in the first place. I then forget I'm dreaming for the most part, and I try to race her back to the old love's house... me flying and her running. His house is now in a different part of town as we head to the rain forest part. I'm now in an enchanted forest with huge trees in it that resemble the movie Fern Gully or Avatar.. they are like giant conscious ancient redwood trees mixed with banyan trees. I arrive to the tree he lives inside of and I notice the tree across from him as a huge woman form in the tree, like a goddess infused in the tree, yet she is in the crucifix position. "I think to myself, wow how beautiful. I should paint this tree." I'm still floating above everyone as I see my judgmental friend and the fiancée walk up to the tree. It suddenly shifts on its own to create a doorway. And I say to the judgmental friend, "oh I just came out here to paint this tree!" As if I wasn't going there to see my old lover, trying to lie because I feel ashamed of myself for even wanting to see my ex now. I then wake up.

I was disappointed, all that lucidity... no amazing sex lol I never get to do that in lucid dreams! Next time, I'm going to pick something else to do besides flying. I do that all the time and have mastered it...

Any ideas on other fun stuff to do while lucid? Or have any comments on my weirdo lucid dream?

It's interesting how the dream starts out as a nightmare but then you realize that its a lucid dream and you start to have fun with it, and at the same time this is also the first lucid dream you have had in a while. Maybe something is going on in your life that is allowing you to relax a bit more.

I'm not sure about what fun things you can do in lucid dreams. Maybe just think about all the things you've wanted to do when you were awake but couldn't for one reason for another.

When I have lucid dreams I'm usually just dealing with whatever the dream is about. I'm aware that I'm dreaming and that I can control whatever happens in the dream but I don't usually think, "Hey! I'm having a lucid dream! What can I do that I wouldn't be able to do in real life?"

Really? I used to lucid dream on a regular basis and I'd get all x-man with it lol! Each dream power I've learned takes time to figure out too. Idk why I like to do this in dreams but shooting laser beams out of my eyes is super fun haha

It also took me a long time to learn how to fly. I used to only be able to glide, but now actually flying is easy.

I don't know what I will do next lucid dream... maybe I will ask to meet my spiritual guide or something deep like that.

Maybe because I've always had lucid dreams since I was a child so I never thought of it as anything special, not like "Oh wow! I'm having a lucid dream!". I just thought of it as normal dreaming.

I've always been a lucid dreamer too, but I was always afraid of it. When I got older, I realized that it was actually kind of cool. I would always just dream of being paralyzed in my bed, and when I realized that I was actually lucid dreaming, I allowed myself to be at peace, drift back into the dream world and enjoy it. I read a book called creative dreaming that provided me with a lot of insight.