So, two nights ago I had a very disturbing dream and I'm wondering what it means. There was a castle and a girl was in it. I was walking up to the castle at evening/night and there was a garden I had to walk through. There was a kid about 6 or 7 years old in the garden. He was naked and squatting on the ground peeing. In some weird way I felt like I was looking at myself as a kid. I had some connection to him anyway. I never actually entered the castle or else I did enter and don't remember what was inside. Next scene I was walking through a field away from the castle and I had a bloody penis that belonged to the kid from the castle garden in my hand. Then I was laying in the grass naked, the girl on one side and the naked kid on the other. The girl was fully clothed and the kid was still missing his penis. Then he reached over and started giving me a handjob. At that point I woke up. Anyway, as background, my girlfriend was raped about a week ago and I think it might be related to that. My theory is the girl in the castle was my girlfriend. The kid was the rapist and I cut off his penis in anger. His giving me a handjob was symbolizing that I still feel vulnerable to him even after emasculating him. So my questions: 1. Is my theory close to a correct interpretation or what is the correct interpretation? 2. Why was the rapist symbolized by a kid? 3. Why did I feel like that kid was a younger me or that I was somehow connected to/responsible for him and his actions? Thanks
Do you feel your interpretation is correct? Then it probably is. The child is a vulnerable being. He could both represent you and the rapist. You desire to overpower the rapist, or be the authority (the child is someone you can easily control). He is also you in the vulnerable sense. Children often hold a lot of guilt feelings and you may feel responsible for what happened to your girlfriend because you weren't there to protect her.